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by , 08-19-2008 at 02:38 PM
Yesterday was the 27th anniversary of my father's death. I thought I was doing ok - but looking back on the fact that I was pretty snappy yesterday, I realize it was probably sitting there eating at the back of my mind.

Today I remembered a quote,
Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult -- once we truly understand and accept it -- then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.

M Scott Peck, The Road Less Traveled.

Since I lost my dad so early in life, I feel like I've relived the loss again during every significant milestone in my life. You spend a lot of time with "what if", if he'd lived how would my life be different, would he be proud of who I am, love my family and friends.

I'm sure the loss molded me and set me on the path of a lot of the decisions I made in my life - good and bad. And it's never seemed easy.

Thankfully, my life might be difficult, but it is good and I am happy and loved. And I'll always have my memories

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  1. Olympicnut's Avatar
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    I SO get where you're coming from, my dads 16th anniversary is a week from Thursday. I think everyone that had a decent relationship with a parent that has died, feels pretty much the same way. You hit upon a lot of points I know I think about often.

    All you can do is know the love that existed in life, and the love that exists in your heart.

  2. dsnylndmom's Avatar
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    Patty and Matt
  3. SusieP.'s Avatar
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    I know your dad would be very proud of you.

    And yours, too, Matt.

  4. IndianaJenn's Avatar
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    Patty, I know you've been thinking about your dad a lot lately. Wish there was some magic thing I could say or do to make the hurt go away.

    You are loved.
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    Patty, I know what you are going through. I am here and love you.
  7. Alan's Avatar
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    My father died just before I entered High School. It seems like such a life time ago. I, like you, have wondered how much my life would have changed if he had been around a while longer. He was suffering a lot toward the end so his passing was a blessing. Just last year my mom admitted that she thinks she killed him. They had sex the night before he died. He never made it through the night.
  8. All Aglow's Avatar
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    Patty, I know you've been thinking about him a lot lately, with everything else going on. I'm so sorry.

    I can only offer you my love and hugs, I don't know what else to say.
  9. Grumpy4's Avatar
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    Patty