A Big Scare
by, 10-13-2007 at 07:57 AM
So, I got a trip to the doctor this week during which I was pretty sure I was having a heart attack and was afraid for my life.
It ended up being pneumonia and the coughing and fluid in my chest was causing the chest pains and so I'm home and drugged up and feeling much better. That's a great thing.
I was terrified and I had all the typical worries on whether everything in my life was in place. Sadly, it wasn't. I truly admire people that can answer yes it is to that question.
Emotionally, it's been an incredibly tough week. My vacation didn't end on the high note I hoped and I had been mired down in the muck of that. Now I realize that some things just are not that important and what is really important is how I feel for the people I'm lucky enough to have in my life.
I've been accused of being a peace maker and I often stick my nose in where it's not needed or wanted. Maybe I need to stop doing that or maybe it's a good thing to try and help people remember what's really important in life. That's one I'm still thinking on. I always hope in these situations that my intent is good but I know it's not always seen that way.
What I can say for sure is that my scare has really reinvigorated me to make sure that the people that I love never doubt that, to try and be the best person I can in all my relationships and count my blessings each and every day. All of those seem like incredibly easy things to do but often get lost in the muck of everyday life.
If I can do that, I'll truly feel like I've had success in my life.
For those of you hanging in with me, many, many thanks. I hope I've told you enough how much it means to me.