by, 08-19-2008 at 02:38 PM
Yesterday was the 27th anniversary of my father's death. I thought I was doing ok - but looking back on the fact that I was pretty snappy yesterday, I realize it was probably sitting there eating at the back of my mind.
Today I remembered a quote,
Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult -- once we truly understand and accept it -- then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.
M Scott Peck, The Road Less Traveled.
Since I lost my dad so early in life, I feel like I've relived the loss again during every significant milestone in my life. You spend a lot of time with "what if", if he'd lived how would my life be different, would he be proud of who I am, love my family and friends.
I'm sure the loss molded me and set me on the path of a lot of the decisions I made in my life - good and bad. And it's never seemed easy.
Thankfully, my life might be difficult, but it is good and I am happy and loved. And I'll always have my memories