16 years ago today
by, 08-28-2008 at 09:33 AM
I can not believe that 16 years ago today, my dad died.
I'm not sad anymore, I'm over that. But these days just get me to thinking about him.
The good things about him. The bad things about him. His laugh. How his sweaters smelled. The "smile" tan lines he'd get on his belly because of the way he'd sit outside tanning (which I actually inherited if I sit the same way in the sun :lol: ).
I think about all the good he did for the community. All those poor people he helped.
I take pride in the fact that because of him and his team, we put a man on the moon. And a space shuttle in orbit. And that he fought the Japanese in the South Pacific in WW2 (which unfortunately, according to my mom, completely changed him).
I ponder how he'd be with me being gay. How he'd treat Brian. If he'd finally accept that I am who I am, since he never knew the true me.
I think back to how old I was, almost 25 years old. Seems like an eternity ago. Just graduated college and searching for a job. Still living at home. Such a different world.
Do I miss him? Of course! Do I think about him daily? Not daily, but quite a bit. Do I wish he was still here? No. Because that's not how life works. It was his time to go, and his death actually helped make me the person I am today. Sounds odd I know. Then again, look who we're talking about :)