Yesterday was the 27th anniversary of my father's death. I thought I was doing ok - but looking back on the fact that I was pretty snappy yesterday, I realize it was probably sitting there eating at the back of my mind.

Today I remembered a quote,

Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult -- once we truly understand and accept it -- then life

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There is one quote I don't think I ever really got, but now I do.

"Never make someone your priority when you're only an option".

I think I finally get it. It's not about shutting yourself off to people, being unkind or never taking a chance.
It's about understanding your expectations of others. It's all about what are you willing to give without expecting anything in return.

Somewhere between doormat and disappointment lives a world of happiness....

I think of you so often and remember happily
The many times we met on the net, you and me.
Never have I ever known before you came along
That a long distance friendship could be so very strong.
You've given me so many things in many different ways;
You're good and sweet and kind with a smile that always says...
You'd open up your heart to anyone you see
And this is why, my friend,
You mean the world to me.

I love the holidays. Starting with Halloween everything different decorations go up for Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas. I love each holiday for it's own thing,

Halloween is pure fun. No stress, no worries, just silly decorations and candy.
Thanksgiving is the harkening of fall. A wonderful meal, a time to remember and the last deep breathe before,
Christmas. What can I say? I love the decorations, I love to shop and try and find the perfect gift and I love that my...

Today is a good day! I wanted to stop and take note.

Sure, I've got turmoil stirring about, but I've got oh so much good.

I was reminded today that it's ok to push that turmoil aside and to just have some fun. I'm not avoiding or not being present, I'm just making a choice that deciding to be happy can be a good thing.

I dealt with my mom.
I'm not sick and I'm working on my weight and my blood pressure.
I've got good friends and I think I'm a pretty...