Remembering......
Posted 08-19-2008 at 04:38 PM by MTNGIRL
Yesterday was the 27th anniversary of my father's death. I thought I was doing ok - but looking back on the fact that I was pretty snappy yesterday, I realize it was probably sitting there eating at the back of my mind.
Today I remembered a quote,
Today I remembered a quote,
Life is difficult. This is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult -- once we truly understand and accept it -- then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.
M Scott Peck, The Road Less Traveled.
Since I lost my dad so early in life, I feel like I've relived the loss again during every significant milestone in my life. You spend a lot of time with "what if", if he'd lived how would my life be different, would he be proud of who I am, love my family and friends.
I'm sure the loss molded me and set me on the path of a lot of the decisions I made in my life - good and bad. And it's never seemed easy.
Thankfully, my life might be difficult, but it is good and I am happy and loved. And I'll always have my memories
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I SO get where you're coming from, my dads 16th anniversary is a week from Thursday. I think everyone that had a decent relationship with a parent that has died, feels pretty much the same way. You hit upon a lot of points I know I think about often.
All you can do is know the love that existed in life, and the love that exists in your heart.
Posted 08-19-2008 at 04:43 PM by Olympicnut
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Patty and Matt
Posted 08-19-2008 at 04:52 PM by dsnylndmom -
I know your dad would be very proud of you.
And yours, too, Matt.
Posted 08-19-2008 at 06:59 PM by SusieP. -
Patty, I know you've been thinking about your dad a lot lately. Wish there was some magic thing I could say or do to make the hurt go away.
You are loved.Posted 08-20-2008 at 12:41 AM by IndianaJenn -
Posted 08-20-2008 at 07:33 AM by sunnygirl -
Patty, I know what you are going through. I am here and love you.Posted 08-20-2008 at 09:22 AM by belle -
My father died just before I entered High School. It seems like such a life time ago. I, like you, have wondered how much my life would have changed if he had been around a while longer. He was suffering a lot toward the end so his passing was a blessing. Just last year my mom admitted that she thinks she killed him. They had sex the night before he died. He never made it through the night.Posted 08-20-2008 at 11:11 AM by Alan -
Patty, I know you've been thinking about him a lot lately, with everything else going on. I'm so sorry.
I can only offer you my love and hugs, I don't know what else to say.Posted 08-20-2008 at 12:34 PM by All Aglow -
PattyPosted 08-21-2008 at 07:43 PM by Grumpy4
