I'm going to sound selfish for a bit. I hate that. So many people are worried for the safety of their family and homes, my issues should be on the back burner why I offer love and support.

I do care, for all of you impacted, I care and I'm here to do what I can.

Once again, I'm struggling.

I'm horribly disappointed with myself. I'm still sick but getting better. But I've go no motivation to try and fix my health. I don't beleive I can do it, so I'm not...

I'm an incredibly emotional person. SusieP said I wear my heart on my sleeve, well, that's a very true statement.

While it can be good, it's got the downside of making little things get the better of me.

My world's just a bit off kilter at the moment. It's really making me sad. After my scare last week I really wanted to feel calm and centered and I feel more off center than normal. Sadly, as much as I try, I can't seem to get it quite right at the moment.

...

So, I got a trip to the doctor this week during which I was pretty sure I was having a heart attack and was afraid for my life.

It ended up being pneumonia and the coughing and fluid in my chest was causing the chest pains and so I'm home and drugged up and feeling much better. That's a great thing.

I was terrified and I had all the typical worries on whether everything in my life was in place. Sadly, it wasn't. I truly admire people that can answer yes it is to that question....

Have I let my health and stress level get so bad?
Honestly, I've about worked myself to death over the past month and it's taken its toll.

Yesterday was a great day. Elton John rocked, got some shopping in, and dinner with the kid. Somehow I also bought 3 additional concert tickets, but, I guess that's ok.

Today, I'm not feeling so hot. I'm worn out physically and emotionally. Hopefully today will be a relaxing day and I'll get back into the groove of taking care...