Today was wonderful, it's been a long time since I've been able to completely enjoy a day. My cousin was deployed to Iraq a couple months or so before Christmas and it was tough because he wasn't able to send letters or e-mails often. I got the wonderful phone call at 6 this morning that he is coming home in a few weeks, we have a really close bond and I can't wait to see him, this makes me EXTREMELY happy. I know that with a career like his, it's never a 100% positive chance that he's going to...

why nothing ever worked in the first place. We were like a broken puzzle that was never supposed to be fixed and should have been destroyed long long ago. But the sad truth is, we can't stand it....it's a natural explosion of fury then happiness. Goodness, can't this just stop?

People speak from their minds, and less from their heart everyday. It's a shame that their minds are so closed to new opinions, thoughts, and ideas. The harder I try, the lazier they get and it's really starting to get to me. Work is getting harder everyday and my co-workers/friends have been calling in sick which leaves me to do all the tough stuff myself. I guess that's life. I've been working with myself and trying to balance my mind but it's easier said than done. Getting up at 4:30 to get ready,...

What happens when you think you know someone and you trust them for everything?

Explosions. Explosions of anger. Explosions or sadness. Explosions of regret.

What happens when you tell someone your whole life and they just kick it to the side?

Regret. Regret of ever speaking. Regret of ever believing that they could be.

What happens when you feel that you could have just walked away in the beginning?

Wonder. Wonder of what could...

Generally I cope with death of friends and family well, but for some reason I'm having a hard time dealing with the passing of my great Aunt. She passed away about 3 years ago, but I can't seem to get over it. While at the mall today I saw so many things that reminded me of her and then smelled a perfume that had almost the exact scent as her small apartment in LA. I hadn't really had this hard of a time dealing with this ever since her funeral, I think the death of Alan (the micechatter) just pushed...