Anybody who knows me knows that optimism is NOT my strong point. My worldview leans towards the fatalistic. I tend to fall into despair and fear when faced with a challenge. I do not know why this is, only that it is.

My life has gone through such dramatic changes over the last few years. Hell, just in the last 6 months, even. And almost all of those changes sent me into a spiral of panic, fear, and self doubt. No matter how many times I've proven to myself that I have what it takes...

To Hector, our new supervisor: eff off. You might be the biggest jerk I've ever met. I hate you, and you have no people skills. I know you are revered by many for your intelligence and smooth, shiny bald head, but I prefer to focus on your complete and utter douchiness. Thank you for coming to our department and bringing us into total chaos. Things used to run pretty smoothly, and now nobody can even find one simple effing file when it needs to be turned in. Thanks for nothing! Ever heard the phrase,...

I'd like to give a big, heartfelt eff off to just about everyone in the world right now. I'm in a rotten mood, and I'm feeling ready to kick puppies or pinch babies.

To Lisa, at Patterson Recovery (who we PAY to repossess our trailers and boats), eff off. Don't send me 14 emails in one day about why things weren't done 2 months before I even started working here. We pay you, bitch, not the other way around, so drop your snotty attitude and just start doing the work we're paying you...

I feel like I have a jumble of stuff in my head, and I feel like I should get it out, but upon closer examination, these thoughts are merely fragments, and don't deserve much examination.

I love my husband. Being married has provided us with some amazing challenges, but I'm seeing how simple things are to get through now that we're together. Nothing is solely "my problem" or "his problem", anything that comes up from now on is our problem, and we've been tackling...

...or at least fading away. And I don't mind one bitty bit. Good riddance, and don't let the door hit you where the good Lord split you.