Yesterday, after her 2 year old daughter Caylee Marie Anthony has been missing for almost 4 months, Casey Anthony was finally indicted on capital charges of murder in the first degree, as well as 6 other charges. I have mixed feelings about this. On the one hand, I am happy that this bitch is finally being brought to justice and held accountable for the disappearance and murder of her sweet baby daughter. On the other hand, it's been almost 4 months and there has still been no sign of this child's...

You know what? I'm pretty awesome. And I don't need a college education to be awesome. I'm intelligent, beautiful, funny, and charming as all get out. Those are what I like to call "real world tools".

My life is not turning out how I thought it would, and that's all right. It's going to turn out how it's supposed to, and everything between point A and point B is just filler. Life's too short for regrets and heartache over things you have no power to change.

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Here goes nothing: I won't be starting school this month after all. Chances are, I won't be starting in January either. I have a feeling it's time for me to put that one away and rejoin everybody else in reality. I'm giving up on this particular dream and I'm not going to waste even one more minute on it. It's time for me to grow up, find a suitable job, and just be an adult.

I'm so excited for this weekend! I'm going to Disneyland! And I get to see some dear friends. Many who won't be here will be sorely missed, this is for sure. But I am pleased to be seeing those who will be around. I'm even sending Paige to my mom's house so I can have grownup time. Should be interesting with no drinking. I haven't actually remembered a Gay Days weekend since I started going.

Thank God my vicious, violent depression is fading (I hope!) It seems to be settling into a general feeling of blah. I'm sleeping a lot (I'm taking Benadryl to help counteract the dizzy spells right now) and I have no motivation to do much of anything. I'm hoping to shake it off pretty soon.