Hey, I feel for you, I grew up a social outcast also and from the age of 8-11 Disneyland was my 60s where Dick and Jane lived and no one made fun of my boots or clothing!!!! I could live free from the real world. In 1969 we left laferney road and I never returned to Disneyland until 32 years later!!! The cascades became my equalizer and coping style and with my new family I made it back to Disneyland many times now. But it was a long wait, and sometimes that is what it takes until the time provides for itself... like right now fox tv is offering free drawings for disneyland trips. So search for those free offers at stores, online, tv, newspapers, go forth and seek!!!