I've been doing research the last two hours and what I've found is not good.
What I've found is that I am:
1.A bad parent who medically neglects her child because he isn't walking yet which HELLO! Should say something!Should be seeing 'walking' specialist! But I'm not.I'm not pushy enough to make him walk alone,which he's getting a LOT closer to. Honestly. But the faact that I haven't seen a specialist for him yet is medical neglect and DCFS is going to come and take him away from me. Or something. We feed him. We play with him.We read to him. We make sure he is bathed regularly and has clean clothes to wear. If we notice he is wet/poopy,we change his diaper.We love him.He gets his shots and sees his doctor more often than I personally would like. But apparently that's not enough and DCFS is going to come and take him away because we are *gasp*negligent.
2.Bugs may be 'developmentally'delayed because he's not walking alone yet. He might be *whisper*retarded slow..or somethng.I dunno. **** it. I'm just going to say retarded. To **** with being politically correct and ****. RE-TAR-DED. There. I said it. My son who I previously thought was smart (not brilliant mind you,but relatively smart)is possibly retarded. And it's all my fault.
3.Every other kid on the planet (except the retarded ones)who is the same age as the Bug is smarter than my child. Because I am a negligent parent. Yes..I am a bad parent.
4.Working mothers have more children who are more retarded than mothers who stay at home.So the fact that our lifestyle (which is not extravagant,just..normal)requires that this be a two income household is making our son retarded. Yay me. May I have more guilt please?Thank you sir. May I have another?!
5.If your child is retarded,you might as well throw in the towel now because once they diagnose your child as 'slow',there is no escaping the label and you have to learn to live with it.
6.Holy **** am I a bad parent.
I just want to cry. I feel so bad. I have told Brandon that Bugs needs to go see teh specialist the Dr.K recommended but he keeps putting it off, like it's no big deal.
I don't know what to do. I really don't. I wonder if I should get a second opinion. Three mos ago,when Dr.K asked if he was walking and we told him no,he didn't seem concerned. Last month,he's all of sudden very concerned. And I don't quite understnd why.Bugs had been cruising for around 2-3 mos at the time we last saw the dr.He had also begun to take short 'hops' of 2-3 steps alone as well as stand alone for various amounts of time (anywhere from 2-3 secs up to a minute or more). So we figured the dr was overworried and that Bug was, in all actuality,right on track. But now,after doing my research it seems he isn't.
And because we are 'medically negiligent' DCFS could take him away if my mother decided to take it into her head to 'report' us for that.I'm not saying she would,but I couldn't rule it out either. Who knows what goes on in that harebrained mind of hers?