I should be excited.
Instead I am exhausted beyond reason, insomnia has kicked in and I am barely awake. Excitment is not something I am capable of.
My first real smile today came not because I am closing on my first home- but because a good friend of mine told me she is pregnant. How wonderful. Their first baby- her husband's b-day is tomorrow- what a b-day present. She will tell him tomorrow- wish I could see his face.
People keep giving me last minute tips and advice- most of it makes me freak out. How will I recognize if something goes wrong at the closing? I wouldn't! I am very dependant on my Realtor and my loan guy- and I feel a little lost.
It's almost 8am- I leave in 4 hours and 30 minutes and not long after that I will own my home. I still have some packing to do and my kids still refuse to take this packing thing seriously- the mess they keep making in their rooms. AUGH!
I should be excited- but all I want to do is sleep or cry.