Just thought this would be a good place to come to, if you want to let stuff out...anything negative. Get that crap out of your system, God knows sometimes we need to.
Here I go.
I have not been getting sleep lately....my thought is because I am getting nervous. I have 2 weeks left in New Zealand, and its starting to get to me. I don't want to leave, but I am so ready to go back. It's a state of confusion I have never known before. Also I am very nervous about when I do go back. I have done NO work since i've been here, and I do not want to repeat another year of high school. Another American girl I know did about the same amount of work and went home in may, and had no problems, but still I am nervous.
Today kind of sucked for no apparent reason...I couldn't be bothered going to school, i was simply too tired. So I stayed home all day. I then got myself out of bed and went to the video rental place to rent the original Batman (seeing as how it is the only batman I haven't seen) They only had it in DVD. And my current host family only has an ancient VCR. So I decided to search for another Tim Burton movie (I'm in a Burton/Elfman phase, not sure why) but I COULDN'T FIND ANY. So I decided to drop 8 bucks on a new release and rented I Heart Huckabees, seeing as how I have only heard positive things. I took home the video and the damn thing wouldn't work in the damn VCR (I am really restraining myself from using worse language) So I said screw it. Then I realised that I had to be at some rotarian's workplace to prepare some stupid skit for the Rotary Club's President Changeover. He told me to be there at 5:15 so I show up and he says the other guy isn't going to be there until 5:50. So I wait around in awkward silence while this guy does computer work. Then at 6:00 we start our little practice. But we didnt DO ANYTHING NEW! It was the same thing that he showed me 3 weeks ago! There was absolutely no point in me being there, waiting around for no good damn reason. He kept asking me for my ideas I kept giving them and he kept discarding them. I just don't care anymore. End of Story.
And Prom is coming up for me on Saturday...and I'm not even going into how nervous I am and why. UGH! To be a teenager....
So How does your life suck?